The battle…

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It was a dark and lonely night.

The sky would have been a vision to behold with all the lovely stars, and a bright full moon…. if…. only if, it wasn’t bequeathed with an awning of heavy storm-ridden clouds.

The air was taught… It prophesied a demonic storm.

There I was, beside the lake… kneeling down.

My arm bled…body covered in scars and bruises.

My hand, pressed against my chest as I gasped for breathe.

My eyes squinted as the pain rendered me numb and senseless.

Everything seemed like a blur.

In front of me, my sword had lain for years, waiting for me…. desperate for victory.

It was a blade of Honor, it shone with brilliance, a luster like no other…. except, now, its shine was a gleam of crimson…for…it was now drenched in blood.

I gathered my strength. My body lost its power, but …. I couldn’t have lost my desire to conquer.

I stood up… Limping….my legs quivered.

My hands clinched around the hilt of the blade.

I swayed it, in all the ways known to my kind…. like a sloshed fool … hoping to kill my rival, once and for all.

But…alas, the knights of obscure wisdom shouldn’t dream the dreams of their reign.

Another sword came flashing, piercing through the air. The assailant aimed at my calf and knocked me down.

I was lying there… helpless… grunting curses at the silhouette of my enemy.

Suddenly, the clouds withdrew their rebellion.

The Moon enlightened the world… revealing the face of my opponent.

It was me.

I hated myself.

 

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    1. Awww! Thank you so much Sid! I am so glad you like it! Your comments always make my day💙💙
      Very true! We are the worst and the only enemy to ourselves.
      Thank you so much for the lovely support ❤️

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  3. This is some very powerful come back dear Gauri! It’s just amazing how you described this battle that we face with ourselves and our different fears and emotions!
    “But…alas, the knights of obscure wisdom shouldn’t dream the dreams of their reign” great line here!
    But we didn’t know which side has won actually, didn’t we? 🙂 Great share!

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    1. Thank you so much Huguette 🤗
      I am so glad that you like the piece. Something very close to my heart. Self-loathing and self-hatred feed at a person’s soul, but alas, it’s very acceptable in today’s time and age.😞
      That’s my favourite line too. Woke up at the middle of a night and scribbled that on a diary. I love these lines when they just dawn on you, naturally.
      Yeah! I don’t know who wins, but I am really wishing that the heart isn’t killed like that.
      Thank you so much 🤗😊💕
      Have a great day ahead 😊

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      1. It’s actually a great thing to do! Write the idea immediately 👌 I feel so frustrated when the idea is vanished and I really try hard to retrieve it 😕
        Loving ourselves is a life time struggle and we need to win this battle ASAP
        the love and respect and appreciation should win, always! The heart is never killed as long as it’s full of love
        😊💕 my pleasure

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      2. Absolutely! I always carry a tiny diary with me to note down my creative impulses (I don’t like to type my ideas, so not on the phone 😅). You should totally check this idea out. I would love to have some spontaneous savagery from you 😎😅😂
        Absolutely! Self love is the most difficult battle but the victory brings endless blessings along 🤗
        Very true! We need to spread positivity. The world needs more smiles💕
        Let’s fill every heart with unconditional love😊😊
        Have a great day ahead 😊💕

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      3. I love diaries and small books, but I rather use my phone notes to not draw attention that’s it, especially when I’m with my friends, I’m the kind that don’t like to speak about what I’m doing and so, I’m a bit a lone wolf even with friends around!
        spontaneous savagery ?? 😂😂 the problem that when it’s gone, impossible to retrieve it, I remember waking up in the morning cursing, because I had a flow of great ideas and then I slept and when I woke up, it was empty! Nothing! I stayed grumpy the entire day 😂 I look like shit when I’m grumpy 😂
        Well you look happy and relaxed (spreading love and stuff hahhaha) butterflies are around huh??? 😁😁😁
        Wish you lot of love and happiness always ❤ 😊

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      4. Oh I see! I understand your point. People might confuse that with showing off!🤔
        Haha! I can relate. I am a loner too, even when I go to a party.
        😂😂 Haha! True that. Some thoughts just cross the mind, like an epiphany, and the next moment, they are gone 🤣
        Hahaha! Goodness! That would have been a terribly grumpy day😂😂
        Haha! I think my butterflies have turned into honey bees. They chase me away 🤣
        Aww! You too, lots of love!🤗💕

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      5. Yes or they put their nose with my things and I hate to see noses around 😂
        Yes those thoughts they are actually the best!!
        😾😾😾😾 yes terribly grumpy 😂
        Honey bees!!! Non wonder you’re disappearing hahah this is great though 😊😊😊 take good care and keep focusing 😂
        🤗💕

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      6. Haha! Absolutely! So many noses increases the probability of one being punched 😂😂
        Yeah! Very true 😊
        😂😂 That reminded me of the grumpy cat 😞
        Haha! Yeah. The bees are chasing me away 😅😂
        Yeah. You too, take care dear and have a lovely time🤗💕

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      8. Haha! I am trying very hard 😅😂
        Yeah! I agree! I miss grumpy cat 😞
        Well! Although the last week was really rough, this week is better! I am making my way through it with a smile! 😊
        Have a lovely time!🤗💕

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    1. Thank you so much Abhishek! I am so glad that I could connect with you through my words. ☺️
      Yeah! Very true! This is a never ending battle. We need to claim victory every single day to protect our soul and make sure that it doesn’t die under the crippling pressures of self-loathing.
      Thanks for the amazing support! Always a pleasure to have you here 💜

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